08TueNov05

Today I went to the Air Borne Selection..... ready to pass..... however..... i did not realise tat it is a completely new route to run... i lost my pacing... not really knowing whether i ran fast enough.... in the end i feel i did not put in enough effort..... i could have ran till i vomit and pass the test and went for the course on 10thNov.... hearing the results... i became so disappointed.... haiz.... after the failure in the seletion test... the more i think about it... the more frustrated i became.... knowing i could have passed it easily.... think i jus cant adapt fast enough to the environment.... sian sian sian sian sian... argh...argh...... why like tat!!!!..... why why!!!!..... everyone knows i failed it!!!..... this is considered a disgrace to me..... i shall train up myself again... those lost fitness..... i am not as fit as i was liao..... really cant forgive myself..... haiz.... wat to do..... watching ppl going for the course.... and i being left out.... was a foul feeling.... dun feel like doing anything.... went for cheerleading training this evening..... accident occured again.... one of the fliers.... got injured.... very serious... awarded into hospital.... morale was damn low.... got nothing to say liao.... today is tuesday.... the 8th..... a november in year 2005.....why are there such things happening? nothing is going right at the moment.... i shall rest in peace in my bed for the moment.